Dream Till You Die

Hand in My Pocket

2010-05-18T14:24:00.000-07:00

I'm broke but I'm happy,
I'm poor but I'm kind,
I'm short but I'm healthy,
I'm high but I'm grounded,
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed,
I'm lost but I'm hopeful,
I've got one hand in my pocket,
And the other one is giving a high five.

- Alanis Morissette

The Day Just Passed. And...

2009-09-02T11:27:00.000-07:00

The hills came into view,
Misty reluctance to awaken.
The chill easterly winds,
Flustered the clouds.
Until they sprang away,
Grey rags torn from the grey horizon.
The bronze light of a sullen sun,
Dimly lit the sky,
Then strengthening,It fired the edges of the clouds with gold,
And set the grim hills with topaz.
As the scenery moved by me,
Showing different facets,
Each scene that met my eyes,
Was more wonderful than the last,
Like a kaleidoscope,
Revealing ever-changing arrangements,
Of colour and shape.

Then the images began to slow their pace;
They darkened...........

The Sky splashed with color,
Soft hues blend together.
To create a silent painting.
A crescendo of golden rays,
Sweep the sky.
Subtle expressions;
Slowly,
Fade behind the distant clouds.
And the sky is left,
Featureless and dark.

The Whole day Passed.
And i still sit here confused.

If I had my life to live over..

2009-08-29T13:35:00.000-07:00

If I had my life to live over,
I'd try to make more mistakes next time.
I would relax.
I would be sillier than I have been this trip.
I know of very few things I would take seriously. I would take more chances.
I would take more trips.
I would climb more mountains, swim more rivers and watch more sunsets.
I would drink more whiskey.
I would have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones.
You see, I am one of those people who live prophylactically and sanely and sensibly,
Hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I have had my moments and, if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them.
In fact, I'd try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after another.
If I had my life to live over,
I would start bare-footed earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall.
I know i will.
I will.

(Influenced by a Harley Davidson Advertisement)

I'll be what I'll be!

2009-08-13T15:11:00.000-07:00

What do I think?
What'll I say?
Thoughts on the brink
Of fleeing away.

Words in my mind
Floating about
Thoughts too confined
Stand up and shout!

Tell them all now
They're listening still.
They may not care now
But hear me they will.

Who cares of the rest's
Opinions of me?
My plan's the best
I'll be what I'll be!
I'll be what I'll be!

Staying true.

2009-08-13T15:05:00.000-07:00

Stay true to your dreams,
A dream conceived in a thought,
Is a thought only a dream.
Or a dream only a thought.
Stay true to your thoughts,
For they matter most of all,
Dreams they conspire to conceive,
Hopes they inspire and conceal.
Stay true to your dreams.
Dreams can come true,
Conceived in the eve anew,
They fade by morn like dew.
Stay true to your thoughts,
For they matter most of all,
Desires they burn to initiate.
Faith they desperately create,
Stay true to your dreams,
Dreams can come true,
Peace is yours in a visions,
Light shouldn’t be a prison,
Stay true to your thoughts,
For dreams they create,Majestic and flightful,
Lifelike and beautiful.

Stay true. Stay true.

Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow.

2009-08-13T14:35:00.001-07:00

Where the mountains touch the sky,
Where poets dreams, where eagles fly,
A secret place above the crowds.
Just beneath marshmallow clouds,
Lift your eyes to a snowy peak.
And see the soon- to- be we seek.
Whisper dreams and let them rise.
To the mountains old and wise.
Climbers climb, it's time to try,
Where the mountains touch the sky.
Take me there.
Oh take me now.
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow.
Where the ocean meets the sky,
Where mermaid dance and seagulls fly.
A place in dreams I know so well.
The sea inside a single shell.
Far across the living sea,
A pale blue possibility.
Beyond the castles made of sand,
Tomorrow in a small child's hand.
Only dreamers need apply.
Where the ocean meets the sky.
Take me there.
Oh take me now.
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow.
Where the forests reach the sky,
Men are equal and doves still fly.
No thorns of war, a perfect rose.
This is where the green grass grows,
Out beyond the crystal stream.
Let the dream begin.
It's time to trust the truth within.
This is where we seek and find.
Dream on Dreamers,
Hopes are high.

Where the forests reach the sky.
Take me there.
Oh take me now.
Someway, Someday, Somewhere, Somehow.
For time has taught and so it seems,
Realities are born of Dreams.

Questions in the World..

2009-08-13T14:30:00.000-07:00

How many steps will it take to walk a mile?
How many seconds will it take to wait a while?
How many battles do we need for us to win?
How many Gods do we need to forgive our sins?
How many times must a man betray his faith?
How many times can a man control his hate?
When do we say that justice isn't fair?
How can we endure the burden that we bear?
Where is the youth who will dare?
Where can we find the people who really care?
Where can we find the road to success?
Is it in the north, south, east, or west?
Where can I find true love?
How many struggles do we need to make it through?
When do we say that a statement is false or true?
How can I forgive others?
When they killed my dreams?
Can you give help to those people in need?
After they have dropped you and you bleed?
Who are the people you can trust?

In this world, to fight is a must.
The world will continue to evolve,
Until those questions have been solved.

Did you dream?

2009-08-13T14:14:00.000-07:00

Ah! Do you dream at night?
Is a dream of light or twilight, Of hope or of joy maybe?
I describe it as an escape,A way of being happy.
In a world we can entirely shape.
Ah! Did you dream last night?
Mystical powers at hand,And energy replenished to the fullest.
In fact, you dream to rest.
And live for a next sunlight.
Am I truly right.
Or you don't understand?
Ah! Did you live today?
Watching, breathing and tasting,
The merry life of each day.
Every element I'm sensing,
Has a value to my humble heart.
Therefore I will be, for my part,
What I am destined to be.
Ah! Will you live tomorrow?
Know that there is always a way,
Leading through our destiny.
See it, feel it you may.
Staying on it won't be easy.
So, take my hand and follow.

Its Us. And Its Our Life.

2009-08-13T11:38:00.000-07:00

How often we must bear the challenges of life;
The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;
The constant ups and downs of daily strife.
Life is not an easy road for most;
It twists and turns with many forks in the road,
Although always, and inevitably, we are never given a choice.
Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction.
And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.
There comes a time, when we see a different light.
Is it what we have searched out, an emotion we cannot fight?
Maybe it is nothing at all, a smile in the wind,
Everything would define our lives, simplicity could begin again.
Unless we chance to open our eyes, the light may fade away,
Never to return again, broken dreams gone astray.
Even as we seek ourselves, wondering about our world,
New lights they do beckon, a neglected flag unfurled.
Do we want what we have seen, or what we do not know?
Is there something else to seek or something to let go?
Now the day is upon us, answers from above descending,
Grasping hearts with new found love, as our time becomes unending.
While standing at a crossroads in life,
The urge is to take the most comfortable path;
The road with least resistance.
The shortest or most traveled route.
And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;
Do we yet again follow the known?
Or does our destiny lie in another direction?
The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too real;
It manifests itself in many ways,
And tends to cloud the issues that might otherwise be clear.
It is in these times of confusion,
That we must seek peace and solitude;
Time to contemplate on our life,
Our experiences and our choices past;
Time to look back, and reflect on what we have learned.
Without fear or confusion.
For only each of us knows our own personal thoughts;
Our unique past and personal history;
The experiences that brought us to the crossroads we now face.
We can always learn a small degree from others experiences,
And yet, no one person can walk in our shoes,
Others know not, the trials and tribulations faced in private.

For each is individual,Its unique, special and personal.

And that is why, while standing at a crossroads,
Only, we, can formulate the decision for ourselves;
The true direction that lies within;
The choices we must deliberate on with clarity and wisdom.
For it is only through personal reflection,
That we can now choose our destiny;

... Our next adventure;
... And the future we will embrace.

The Past is Over. Let it Go Away.

2009-08-13T11:27:00.000-07:00

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Enough laughs and not too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.
Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.
Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

If I can endure for this moment,
whatever is happening to me.
No matter how heavy my heart,
or how dark the moment may be.
If I can but keep on believing,
what I know in my heart to be true.
Then darkness will fade into morning,
and with this dawn a new day, too.

For many of us, the past holds many secrets ,better left untold.
For to bring them to the present, its bitterness unfolds.
The memories we cherish, may be tarnished by its gloom.
There is no need relive the past for to do so is in vain.
Yesterday's gone, today is here why relive the so called pain.
Forget the past as you turn away, and wish it a farewell.
For no longer in the past, will your present dwell.

The Past is Over. Let it Go Away.

Up above the Hill...As the mind stood still..

2009-07-22T13:00:00.003-07:00

Cold and blissful was the whistling wind,
A lonesome pasture deep down.
Trees shivered in their vivid costumes,
Changing with the dark side of the sun.
Curious on an unsteady slope,
We sat loving life by foot,
The Blues piercing our ears,
Smoke rings moved like White angels , scattering overhead.
The pastel shades of green all around,
It felt like there was nothing in front of us and nothing behind.

The next sixty minutess would be like an eternity we didn't know.
The heart boiled within a sea of mixed emotions.
Thoughts about life seemed like an endless ocean.
It was a wierd feeling, A state of grace, a place in time,
An illusion that turns realities blend, Before the eyes of a any man.
Confused with the thoughts that burdened our mind,
We felt lost to the ages as we walked through time.

We sat under the lights of the heaven,
In the stillness of the day.
Slowly drowning in the shadow of a doubt,
Listening to ourselves, and not what other people say.
I can’t barely define these moments of time.
One thought is here and the one more is gone.
Sky above my head, Open mind,
And I try to think.
This is where I want to be.
The reality of it all is that reality is what it is or what we think it is.
The world in our mind is small and but complex.

There are thoughts which strike us everyday,
They swirl around unabated;
Some are fuelled by the dreams of yesterday
With an aim to stand tall against all odds
We nurture these desire for a long time;
Falling at every other step,
We must pick up these pieces and move on,
Hoping to succeed where others have given up.
What we did yesterday is what we are today,
People think we have changed,
May be they are right. Maybe.
We take life as it comes,
No expectations and no demands.

As the morning light filtered in the eyes,
The world slowly started coming alive,
Signalling the end of the darkness for that period of time.
And the beginning of something wonderful.
Its nearly overwhelming,
Talking to those who arent there.
While having a staring contest
Between us and the mighty hills.
Deep down we mumble in response,
But our thoughts go unheard except to ourselves.
We hear them loud and clear we remember telling each other,
Sometimes we feel like we've been blind and these drugs are our glasses,
We were amazed by what we saw going on before our head.
We hear loud noises where others hear only silence.
The gentle breeze drifted in,
Giving a breath of inspiration and igniting this hardened mind.
That is the power. That is the life.
Might sound vague and funny, but till you go up there you'll never know it.
That is perhaps the greatest feeling.

[Manali Experiences]

Questions?

2009-07-22T12:01:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel rubbed across your brain?
Does your world feel upside down?
Behind every smile do you sense a frown
Are you smashed under the heavy foot of a crown?
And is that crown worn by a clown.
Does anything and everything in your world really make sense?

Suspense is the web that holds me up,
Suspicious of prophecies from an ancient book,
Scared in anticipation of whats coming up next,
Struggling to escape from the web but it's to immense,
Standing on a ledge of inmeasurable possibilities,
With each step you take, you try to avoid a mistake.
But for how long is this life at stake?

What will bridge the gap to get me a step further?
And why does every end have to be a mystery?
Why do we have to live in this mysterious misery?
If you could hurl yourself forward like a stallion,
Would someone be there to catch me?
Or is the future just an abyss waiting to exist?
My fear is that in the end I'll have my answers,
But in those answers I'll find more mystery.
Stuck in this loop of infinity....

Sometimes what i feel...

2009-05-21T03:12:00.000-07:00

I feel I'm behind invisible bars
I sit and watch the busy world go by
My mind just seems so far away
It's difficult to explain how I feel
Anger builds up confusion inside
My temper's my Achilles heel
I aim to control the thoughts in my head
I aim to diffuse the ticking bomb that makes me snap
Silence and time to think to myself
Will find me the exit to this trap
I'm drowning deep within my head
Losing myself, fighting for understanding
I need to reach a tap and let my feelings run out
Make my own happy ending
But it's hard when all around you
People have their own mixed up minds
Why add to a growing pool of confusion
I'm paddling in all the time
An escape is not always easy
This is the story of my life
The same repetitive feelings twentyfour-seven
But there's light at the end of the strife
Tomorrow's yet another day
And tells yet another tale
The future's bright people tell me
So now I can exhale

Sudden Thoughts

2009-05-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

I have known the burdens of my heart
Consumed with the fire that burns
As bright as the evening star
Troubled within the confusion of life's illusion
Shall I question thee before I sleep
Will my soul awaken and cover me
As I wait for you by the seed of the naked flame
Beneath the lights of the heavens
In the stillness of the night
Cover me oh wait for me
Beneath the northern lights
For the fires that burn before us
Will outlast us
Will the essence of our light keep us
Beneath the stars tonight..

Everyday to Today

2009-05-01T01:22:00.000-07:00

Everyday this world grows three shades darker.
As this tunnel collapses into debris.
And everything turns black and white.
As bone meets the earth the truth meets sky.
I feel the wind as the night sets in, as the light guides me home.
Thes gates open now and I see my life before my eyes.
Escape from my body as projected on silver,
As a shadow of time made to watch over myself.
Just a whisper in the wind,
A shadow casted on the wallI remain transparent to the world.
This weather portrait paints life on canvas,
Contrasting colors with these eyes.
Bring back this light so that I can start again.

Sometimes I thought I was the loneliest man alive
When I'm all alone I sit behind the keys
An altar of loneliness within the millions stand in front of me
How far have I driven myself from that reality I once tasted?
I thought I was so much closer to grasping certainty
Waiting for what I've seen to be taken away from me
Inside I hide alone and undefined
A fear breeds as I'm not received leaving a lack of trust
While wanting and wishing for a hand of purity to hold
As you are always pushing me you are always pushing me
We're just wasted prayers without holding onto your embrace
And realizing life is worth living
Accepting acceptance
Time after time some wounds stand to breath again
I help myself to stand higher
With hope for tomorrow and confidence to live for today.

The Mind and Its Maze

2009-05-01T01:19:00.000-07:00

Many roads split off from here,
Life seems to be running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far, seems far from here.
There are things known and things unknown,
I've stood in silence which is immortal
Like a forgotten page of history which fades away but still remains,
Well my mind is goin' through changes
I feel just like I'm in the time
Every time you see me goin' some where
I feel like I'm going out of my mind.

The restless eyes stares across a weary room,
A glazed look and I was on the road to ruin,
The music played loud and played as I whirled without end
No hint, no word and no honour to defendI will,
I will the mind sighed to my request
And then it tossed her thoughts while my resolve was put to the test
Then drowned in desire, the soul caught fire
Negativity lead the way to the funeral pyre
And without a thought of the consequence,
I gave in to my decadence.
One slip, and down the hole I fall,It seems to take no time at all

.The crystal powers took me ,far across the sands of time,
Searching ever for an answer, which had disappeared from my mind.
Bound by the laws of madness, the darkness preys
Each of us claim to greatness and each of us death embrace,
The promise always broken and the assurances insane
The destiny is never written and the road is never tamed.
Sometimes i believe that i live a life so faded,
Rebuilding facts at dawn I bet my soul is jaded;
It fills my life with hope It watches over me
My own decisions flow;
Persistent, we endure The masses, immature and
The future is secure.

The Mind and Its Thoughts

2009-05-01T01:16:00.000-07:00

The hand is always open and so is the mind
A state of grace a place in time
An illusion that turns realities blend
Before the eyes of a foolish man
Shall follow with conviction with wings of the light
As we long for the future as we hold on to the night

With the spark of the soul and the scared flame
Linger within the essence of your name
Confused with the thoughts that burden my mind
I am lost in the ages as I walk through time

For a treasured thought of the promised land
Is hope for the future
But for the many second to none
Another thought, another mind open
Blowing in the wind

To pass by the way as I look to the shore
The world will know my essence forever more
The state of grace a burden to bare
I look to the wind and listen into the air
Another thought, another hand, and mind open

When Questions Are Asked To Self

2009-05-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

I have had the burdens in my heart
Consumed with the fire that burns
As bright as the evening star
Troubled within the confusion of life's illusion
Shall I question myself before I sleep
Will my soul awaken and cover me
As I wait for myself by the seed of the naked flame
Beneath the lights of the heavens

In the stillness of the night
Cover me oh wait for me
Beneath the northern lights
For the fires that burn before me
Will outlast me
Will the essence of our light keep me
Beneath the stars tonight

Deep inside my mind,Within a sea of mixed emotion
With this thought a single notion
Is my life and endless ocean
Of fear and doubt?Is there a reason?
For why my heart is calling out
When there is screaming
I hold no fear

As my light begins to disappear
Is there hope beyond these fears?
Lost within my fallen years
Where life is not over shadowed
By some hidden pain that weeps inside
For every time I shut my eyes
I can feel the something
Behind my eyes.

A Poem To Self

2009-05-01T01:11:00.001-07:00

As I look out ahead
Along an endless journey
Down a long and endless road
To places I've never known
To places that await my company
I don't know where I'm going
As i travel on my way
But one day I know i'll find my place
And that is were I'll stay

Aware of what I have become
Beneath the light of sun
In fields where I now run;
Blemished by deeds that sort me out
Before this land of endless drought
Sprouts by which, the seed is sown
Within this world sometimes I am alone

Something rhymes within my heart
Where tears are shed and now depart
There is life forever , within this heart
For none have come to seek us out
Within this land of endless drought
Attributes, bordered beyond the great divide
That lingers here beyond the expanse of time
Hollow now I have become
Beneath the light of the sun.

I don't know if there's work for me
I don't know if there's love
Or even a family I guess in time I'll see
If that is what's right for me
I know life is a journey
And that's the way its supposed to be
I'm happy for the chance to live
As travel along the way
And if I find true happiness
Then I know I've found the place for me.

Open Your Eyes

2009-02-11T01:55:00.000-08:00

Well people look and people stare
Well I don't think that I even care
You work your life away and what do they give?
You're only killing yourself to live
Just take a look around you what do you see
Pain, suffering and misery
It's not the way that the world was meant
It's a pity you don't understand
I'm telling you
Believe in me
Nobody else will tell you
Open your eyes
And see the lies
You think it's me who's strange
But you've never had to make the change
Never give your trust away
You'll end up paying till your dying day
Open your eyes

Paper, Leaves and Fire

2009-02-11T01:34:00.000-08:00

I can kiss you when I need to
I can crush you when you're mean
I can have you in the morning with my milk and magazines
You're my constant sticky finger
I'll never get enough, you're my cigarette
My love,
You're my heaven in a package
You're the love I never had
My friend when I'm unhappy
My mother when I'm bad

Although I dont smoke anymore, I know what wonders you can do....

Everything But High

2009-02-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

Gotta get up before it's too late--
I can't get up, and now it's too late!
I haven't got a degree,
Like this I can't get a job;
I'm fallin' asleep,
I'm a lazy slob.
I'm am high, so high,
Everybody knows, what's my name?
I'm not a loser in this big life game!
I can stand up, I can't sit down
I can do everthing, I can get around!
I play the guitar and write poetry
I wear boxers and denims whole day
I refuse to cut my hair and shave, a real cave man
My amplifier is bigger than you,
Nothing in this world can define my IQ cause its way to much,
But,
I am just a Lil too High, too high..

Finally I Woke Up

2009-02-11T01:21:00.000-08:00

I Wake up
I am something more than what i'm supposed to be
I am something more than i have meant to show
How was i supposed to know
That i've wanted, and i've waited.
I can be the one to show you that life's not simple enough.
I can be the one to tell you i've held this back for too long.

Live or Die

2009-02-11T01:13:00.000-08:00

Hold strong come from behind.
Take them down!
Replace fear with pride, hold your ground
We've made our choice, between life and death.
And we chose to live.
We tried changing the past, or so they say...
Please wake me up...
Because this is, yes this is the way we will end.
Don't look back there is nothing left!
And this is why we run, run.
Save us from the end of everything we know.
Sold ourselves out.
Live or Die...

Your Words

2009-02-11T01:09:00.000-08:00

Words don't seem to come so easy
When I need them oh so badly
Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords
Maybe I can give this another
Shot or sing about a broken
Heart, or imitate the way it feels
If this is happening for real
This distance seems closer
When you shove it in my face
This moment has left me with nothing else to say
I'm losing my interest with these empty pages
They're torn, and have frayed edges
This torn, dusty book...

The Truth in You

2009-02-11T01:04:00.001-08:00

Now I see the truth in your eyes.
This time it could be forever.
Now I see the truth in your eyes.
Tell me what you're looking for?
To fall asleep with you would be heaven;
For once this dream won't be short lived.
Take me with you show me all life's splendors.
I'll trust you if you'll just trust me.
Tell me what you're looking for.
Now I see the truth in your eyes.
This time it will be forever.

Incomplete Destiny

2009-02-11T01:00:00.000-08:00

Two roads split off from here,
My life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.
I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far, seems far from here.
But....

Fly and I'll be there

2009-02-11T00:48:00.000-08:00

Told me a story yesterday
About the sweet love between the moon and the deep blue sea
And when it was time for her to leave she spread her wings high over me
And said I shall return tomorrow
And I said fly,
Fly on through the sky
Fly on...

Tomorrow I shall have you by my side

Where am I?

2009-02-11T00:47:00.001-08:00

Well my mind is goin' through changes
I feel just like I'm in the time
Every time you see me goin' some where
I feel like I'm going out of my mind

Have you heard?

2009-02-11T00:43:00.000-08:00

Hello, my friend
So happy to see you again
I was so alone
All by my self I just couldn't make it
Have you heard,
What the winds blowing round
Is coming on strong
And don't give a damn,
If your hair is short or long
Get out of your grave
Everybody is dancing in the street
Do what you know,
Don't be slow.
Forget about the past,
Things ain't what they used to be .

Think

2009-02-11T00:33:00.000-08:00

Think it over
What you just said,
In your pretty little head,
Are you sure that i'm not the one?
Is your love real or only fun?
You think it over, yes, think it over,
A lonely heart grows cold and old

Remember all birds and bees,
Go together in the life's mysteries,
A happy day when you and I,
Think as one and kiss the blues Goodbye,

Think It Over

Stay

2009-02-11T00:29:00.001-08:00

Stay and help me to end the day
And if you don't mind
We'll break a bottle of whiskey or wine
Stick around
And maybe we'll put one down
'Cause I wanna find
What lies behind those eyes

Goodbye Beloved

2009-02-11T00:27:00.000-08:00

A restless eye across a weary room
A glazed look and I was on the road to ruin
The music played and played as we whirled without end
No hint, no word her honour to defend
I will, I will she sighed to my request
And then she tossed her mane while my resolve was put to the test
Then drowned in desire, our souls on fire
I lead the way to the funeral pyre
And without a thought of the consequence
I gave in to my decadence
One slip, and down the hole we fall
It seems to take no time at all...

Drunken Night

2009-02-11T00:22:00.000-08:00

Last night I had too much to drink
Sitting in a pub with the sweetest fools
Playing to rules
Trying to impress myself but feeling rather empty
I had another drink
What a way to spend that evening
They all turn out to be the best friends
Playing the game
But in the scene I should have been
Far away at the end of the day
Getting up, I feel as if I'm remembering this scene before
I open the door to an empty room
Then I forget
The telephone rings and someone speaks
She would very much like to go out to a show
So what can I do - I can't think what to say
She sees through anyway.....

Days Never Come Back

2009-02-11T00:12:00.000-08:00

Remember a day before today
A day when you were young
Free to play along with time
Evening never comes
Sing a song that can't be sung
Without the morning's kiss
Queen, you shall be it if you wish
Look for your king
Why can't we play today
Why can't we stay that way

Stars are for Eternity

2009-02-11T00:11:00.001-08:00

Walking to a friend's house at around 7 30 in the evening, I was cold. Cold, but not in a bad way; The sort of cold that you feel when you dip your feet into an ice cold stream, the cold that makes you feel fresh and awake. The quiet suburbia seemed harmless, the darkness making the place more mellow rather than spooky in any way. Ipod in my ears, I walked briskly forward, mouthing the words to the songs I've heard so many times. Faulty lighting made the lamp on the high up lamp post nearby flicker and eventually black out. Ominuous you say, and thats what I thought at first as well. All of a sudden, for no reason at all, I paused and looked up. It took my breath away. With the absense of the annoying street lamp and the sudden wide open space formed by the meeting of three roads, I found myself isolated from the rest of the world, suddenly coccooned in a bubble with only me and the stars. I stared up in awe as the universe expanded around me, each star bright and beautiful. Like a symphony of music, slowly more stars started flickering into existence as my eyes started adjusting to the darkness. Its was beautiful. All at once I was reminded of how insignificant we are in comparison to the universe. As is a habit of mine whenever I see something special, I closed my eyes and raised my hands, saying a small thank you to whoever it was that was responible for all that we see around us. I continued walking comforted by the fact that I was being watched over by benevolent pinpricks of light (sounds crazy doesnt it ?*smile*) Walking past house after house of the same thing, a nice lawn, a few flowers, a pretty house, I also realised that despite mans constant efforts to control nature, Nature will always rein free. The stars will always be there.

We are too busy with our lives these days. Once in a while the only thing you gotta do is look up....

The Story of Me

2009-02-10T03:27:00.001-08:00

I am an adventurer, maybe of a different kind. Like every other human being I don’t know why I was born. As time has passed and I touch adulthood I have realised something. It’s not a sudden feeling. The mind was always in the maze trying to figure out what was its destination. Today I feel different, as if my mind is all ignited. It’s not an attempt to prove myself matured to the outside world. People say I am matured and I know a lot about life, I say to myself I am yet to discover my true self. I am a dreamer but of a different sort. My mind is in the state of suspended animation. My vision towards life is clear but extremely complex. Thoughts flow in my mind like the dust in the wind.This isn’t a tale of a hero. It’s about one human mind which always ran straight like that of a normal man and suddenly after a long thought process, took a diversion. The mind dreamt and aspired. I do not know whether the diversion led to the right destination. But as I entered the road I could sense a strong feeling of satisfaction, freedom and happiness. May be this is insanity, maybe a very narrow view of teenage or a hasty decision of the mind. I do not know whether the decision I have taken is right, whether it will have a successful conclusion or be too rigid for me. Maybe.Seeing the outside world reality, sensing the pain, wandering like a traveller who has nowhere to go, reading more and more everyday has changed me more than I thought. I don’t feel like I am the same anymore. I am no more the same me that I was. Life has always been chasing me. This experience is far away from the wretched daily life, the lectures in college, the activities and those human beings who could never become my friends. Ahead of me is reality- something called life. I believe that a human being must dream all throughout his life. Every man has a passion. When you chase your passion in order to fulfil your dreams you lead a complete life. Now I trust only one person, that’s Me.This is not some revolutionary chronicle, neither an attempt to turn into some outlaw. Far away from your everyday reality is something which none of us see. My mind has become a pendulum between dream and reality. I don’t know what force broke me away from the strong clutches of reality into this open road where I always wanted to travel.What do we leave behind when we leave the reality? Every single moment seems split in two: Melancholy for what is left behind and the tremendous excitement of what is about to come. We as human beings are powerless still want to live a life of dignity. Life has become a deep mystery and I till I die I’ll keep trying to solve this puzzle.

The Never Satisfied

2009-02-10T03:25:00.000-08:00

Left behind I feel, the world moved on,
Why am I bound to live, always in unlike forms,
Caught I am, in a whirlpool of thoughts,
No fresh lease of my life, I see my emotions rot.
I wish the good for all, rarely a good comes to me,
When i hurt people or they hurt me should I take it as my destiny?
Heart turned lifeless, it sings only songs of pain,
Here I sit with my guitar and pen, Feeling lonely all over again......

Sometimes life takes you so far away you forget what life really means to you. We live such a hectic modern day life and try to keep up to the expectations of the society. Maybe we all chase what life guides us to. But are we destined to go there? We may have all the material pleasures in life, all the satisfaction. Maybe we have climbed the tallest mountain and measured the deepest sea of life but have we measured ourselves? Possessions are numerous but where is our happiness? The minds are always filled with thoughts but are we filled up?What is that in you that at one point of time you forget what you really are? Have you ever experienced it?

Sometimes from deep down inside you can hear loud screams which take you so far away, that they cross all levels of reality. When you reach that point in your life, you get a strange feeling of satisfaction, you feel free to do what you were born to do and what is meant for you. Maybe it is the toughest route, perhaps the easiest too. It’s not about being valiant and a super hero. It’s something you do for yourself, for your satisfaction. Remember life doesn’t give you anything, you have to take it.

Don’t follow the path you are destined to follow. Make your destiny.

Money and You

2009-02-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

I belong to that group of teenagers, who are deeply influenced by music and revolutions. Guevara, Lennon, Dylan, Marley, Morrison are all over my room. They are on my computer. The entire day, I keep thinking what they actually said.
I was a born in a family, which luckily could provide me with everything I ever wanted. We weren’t the wealthiest people around, but I never had to ask for anything. Over the years, I have discovered that material wealth and happiness in any one’s life is actually secondary. Is loads of money, a wonderful girl, a lavish bungalow, the latest car everything you want? That’s it?
I had them all. That is your definition of Happiness and a complete life? Have you ever looked at yourself and thought over what you are doing? Is that what you really want to do?
Life is all about experimentation and experiences. The more you experience, the happier you die. Experiences might be bad or good but they all teach you something which you’ll never regret in life.Dream big, and chase it. Remember unless you watch something in dreamland, you wont be able to catch it in reality.
MONEY IS EVERYTHING, BUT WITHOUT MONEY YOU ARE NOTHING,
YOU WITHOUT YOURSELF IS NOTHING, YOU WITH YOURSELF IS EEVRYTHING

I Think Its That Woman

2009-02-10T00:27:00.000-08:00

I look at the swaling sunset,
And wish I could go also,
Through the red doors beyond the black-purple bar.
I wish that I could go,
Through the red doors where I could put off,
My shame like shoes in the porch,
My pain like garments,
And leave my flesh discarded lying,
Like luggage of some departed traveller,
Gone one knows not where.
Then I would turn round,
And seeing my cast-off body lying like lumber,
I would laugh with joy.

Dreamland is sometimes Reality

2009-02-10T00:24:00.000-08:00

I am a teenager who dreams and has big hallucination,
I made out love with women,
Didn’t know where actually is my destination,
I sometimes wonder whether I'll still remain the same
or I’m sleep with some new found faith,
Will i love someone again?

When Nature Acts

2009-02-10T00:10:00.000-08:00

Through the brown eyed lens of blood shot eyes,
Its difficult for me, I can’t define this moment of time,
Far away from the clear blue skies, here i'm lying high,
I’m rushing down to the hole in the ground where I do not wanna hide,
I want to deal with my mind during the long drive,
Take my life away, if I am wrong, cause my conscience will never lie.

The Essence of Life

2009-02-09T23:39:00.000-08:00

“When you were born, the whole world rejoiced while you were crying loudly.Live your life in such a way that when you die, the whole world will cry when you will rejoice.”-
Sayings from the Vedas